First my hysteroscopy was denied by the insurance company, so that never happened. Next, we lost my (step) grandfather on Memorial Day. (While he wasn't my biological grandfather, he is my "Grandaddy" just the same. Thankfully he lived a full and relatively healthy 95 years. For the last week of May we celebrated his life. I was able to see my (step) sisters and spend some quality time with them.) Then, when I got back to work the first week of June, I found out that there were not one, but two more coworkers are pregnant. One is now 7 weeks and the other is 19 weeks along. This made me the only one who isn't pregnant.
All this stress has really gotten to me and I ended up having a horrible breakdown with a full on hysterical crying session while at work. After I came out of it, I knew that I needed a reminder of who is in charge and that there is a reason for everything. Determined, I set my needle to work and in a few days time I ended up with this reminder........
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| Faith by Lizzie*Kate 32 ct Silkweaver Solo |
Since I finished the piece, things have begun to look up. I went to another doctor for a second opinion as to why I'm not holding a pregnancy. Based on our initial conversation, he thinks that he can have me pregnant by my birthday (August)! I'm now in the process of waiting for a huge battery of labs to be completed. (They took 14 vials of blood!) I will be heading back to his office on Monday for some further testing including a saline sonogram. This time I will be going through with the testing even if the insurance company denies it. Getting my faith back has shown me that I don't have to be worried about all the things that have been on my mind up until this point. I'm just praying for his guidance through this tough journey.
I think he has given me the beginnings of an answer this week.....I can look at my pregnant coworkers and I don't break down into tears. For this I am thankful.......
14 comments:
ohhhh well done on turning everything round to a positive .... I sincerely hope that you come up smelling of roses (second part to a saying ;)
love your stitched piece and I think that it is a perfect reminder too :)
fingers and paws are crossed that all go well with the tests and the Dr does everything successfully :)
take care .. keep your chin up and the sun will come out tomorrow :)
love mouse xxxxx
My dear friend...hang in there. All of us will keep you in our thoughts and send good wishes and hope for you.
Aww , Jennifer , so sorry for your loss .
I love your sampler ,and I'm sure plenty of people need to be reminded at times . Chin up , I am hoping for good news for you honey .XXX
I am sorry for your loss. 95 years is fabulous!!
What a wonderful piece you have stitched up. Good for you! I know it is hard. There are things in all of our lives that we want different. I certainly have things right now too. I keep reminding myself that God know what is best for me. Do I really want something that God does not want?!? http://astitchersstory.blogspot.com/
Blessings to you Jemmifer, it sometimes take a little bit of turmoil to realize that all is in His Hands.
Gods Blessings sent your way.
Catherine
I am thinking positive thoughts for you with your appointment this week. Prayers that all goes well, and your wishes are granted!
Melissa
Hi Jennifer...
Your (step) grandfather sure did live a full life but it is still hard when they pass.
Remembering your family in my prayers.
I believe it will happen Jennifer! Keep the faith (beautiful stitch by the way). This new doctor sounds promising.
Thoughts are with you Jennifer. I know that faith pulls us through the tough times and boy have there been some this past year.
I love this piece you stitched and so fast!!
I hope everything goes well as planned with your procedures.
Jennifer
Feathers in the Nest
I do pray that you have success with this new doctor
Jennifer, keep the FAITH. He does have a plan. We may not always know what it is but I believe you need to have FAITH. My prayers are with you. I'm here if you need ANYTHING!
Beautiful piece to help you through...sending warm hugs and many prayers....
Faith is not always easy, but I pray having those words where you can see them daily will help you. Prayers for the next part of your journey.
I'm so sorry to hear about your grand daddy. My thoughts to you and your family. Hang in there. I know you've been going through a rough patch. It's good that you are hanging onto faith and I hope that you get good news soon!
SO sorry about your loss and tough times Jennifer. Hoping for a successful outcome with your treatment...know it's been a long hard battle.
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